‘Tis the season…
Wow everyone. The time really has come and gone since this vision of mine came to light. I waited for many months before releasing the book to the public, and now that I finally have, I have some thoughts…
You are all incredibly awesome :)
The support and kind words I’ve received from the first readers have been amazing. I considered not releasing the book for a while just because the thoughts were very heavy, but I am so glad I did because your reassuring words have really comforted me.
I also want to say that from the very moment I hit the “sell” button online, besides the instant terror, panic, and fear that overcame me by knowing everyone would be able to see my thoughts (hah), I also felt a sense of relief. As if to say, this chapter of my life can finally be closed.
You see that’s the thing about healing. You have to put in the hard work first before you reap the benefits.
For the longest time, whenever I would talk about endometriosis or anything that had to do with it, I would instantly start crying. I just couldn’t handle it. It used to bother me so much that I couldn’t get a handle on my feelings.
But lately, after going through this entire experience from start to finish, I can say I openly talk about it and I don’t want to drown myself in my sorrows (lol).
I don’t feel like I want it to be my entire life anymore. And THAT was the goal. As well as opening the dialogue for others to discuss it and heal themselves.
I’m sure with the coming weeks ahead there will be critics and people who don’t have nice things to say. That comes with anything in life (I have already learned). But that’s why I’m so thankful for those around me supporting me. It’s important to have that.
Going forward I really do want to write more. Maybe about this topic, maybe not. I have other things already on paper that I have to continue working on. Since holiday season is here and recently I’ve been working on more research, I really haven’t had the chance to get my thoughts onto paper. I’ll speak for us all when I say we have to find the time for the things we love in order to keep our inner-selves happy.
My coworker made such a great statement yesterday and he said his job isn’t really his job or his life, it’s just a means to support his true self, his passions outside of the workplace. And I’m going to keep that in mind this holiday season. Remembering there is more to life than work, stress and other negatives that are thrown our way.
Happy Tuesday everyone.