Brain fog

We’re in the midst of awareness month and I haven’t been doing much of making others “aware.” Oh, but for certain, I’m aware.

With an unexpected emergency this month, my mind has been split into pieces as to where my focus has been. I was hoping to utilize all the talk surrounding endo to promote the book, the blog, and get the correct information out there. But I just haven’t been able to.

As I sit here and type this while in a flare, I’m just reminded of how this illness can take you down a few notches.

Even though home life has been crazy, my personal life has been wonderful. I’ve been riding the balance between the two trying to remind myself not to fall prey to the bipolar swings of the universe. However today, I feel my mind drifting. I’m daydreaming. I’m overthinking. I’m plotting.

Sometimes I see visions of scenarios where I think my life should be headed. And when I realize I don’t know how to get there, I get stuck in my own head. I know I’ve written about it before but the true key to happiness is letting go of all what we thought “would be” or “should be” and realizing we need to work with where we are ACTUALLY. The brain fog kind of takes over sometimes and makes you feel like you’re on that roller coaster ride you can’t get off. I know the things that I want but the path to get there becomes a bit fuzzy. And then when fatigue sets in, you almost feel as if you aren’t moving forward at all.

Thankfully my support team of friends is amazing and always remind me that even though the brain fog sets in and I can’t control it, my thoughts don’t have to control me. And I know I’m doing better than I ever have been.

Sometimes we all just need little reminders and boosts to get us through our days. #chronicallyill